Even after telling me not to message if I am not going to be your girlfriend, you keep messaging me “te quiero”.
You do not.
You do not love me. You do not know me. I thought we could be friends. I am okay with being friends. I was actually laughing and making jokes this morning because I thought that we were only friends, but you are not making this easy. You went to get something to eat and you messaged “te quiero”.
You do not.
I told you that I “want to be friends”, that yesterday was nice as friends. I told you that “You want to hurry on this and I’m not going to hurry to anything”, I told you that “I do not like it when you give me ultimatums and tell me a girlfriend or nothing.” That that was not nice. Yet when you went to get something to eat you messaged “te quiero”.
You know what sucks and is hurtful?
I would love for someone to genuinely tell me all the things that you have been writing to me. I would love that so much. It would mean that someone actually sees me (I am okay with being invisible, more than most time, almost always). And more than that, someone that I am okay with, likes me. It would mean that maybe I might have something worthy of the books. That I would have a stomach full of butterflies, toe cringing, heart fluttering, nerves on end romance.
I hate that the only reason someone is so persistent is to rectify their status.