Future plan.

Can’t stay that I’m surprised. But I can say it still hurts.



What would it be if I am treated how I treat others.


The fella who working here just now was asking me if I wanted corn curls but in the process I was bending to check something and wasn’t really listening to him, next thing he say “mind that pants buss you know”.

And laughed.

And the girl laughed.


I want a forever love.

I want a book worthy romance.

I want a breath caught in chest love.

I want toe curling, butterfly in stomach romance.

I want a crazy, exciting love.

I want someone who understands me.

I want a forever love.


Right now I am outside the mall waiting.

Waiting and crying as I message Nard Dog.

The honest naked truth that I have just messaged him has my eyes watering, my eyes sprouting the water that it holds.

I’m tired of not being thought of by the people that should at least consider me.

Right now I am waiting.

I shouldn’t have had to wait, the car would not be empty while you waited.

I am just so tired of waiting.

Don’t worry, I won’t ask again, I’ll find my way home, I’ll fend for myself.

Thank you so much.


You must use your brain.

That was said to me today. Who the fuck are you to tell me to use my brain? Just because you are under pressure with the money that you are not receiving, that does not give you the right to take it out on me. I am doing my tasks exceptionally considering what I met when I started. Take a look in the mirror before you cast aspersions. And you better check your glass house before you throw those stones.


I think I wrote a post about DQ before. That was a night that I wanted, but because I do not possess the car, I could not get it.

Tonight is similar.

Today Mr. D€85 told me “use your brain”. Just because you are under pressure, that does not give you the right to chastise someone for doing their job, especially when they have been doing it with utter accuracy.


I asked to stop by DQ in Westbees, I was told no. I pay for my own thing, as I always have to. I simply asked to stop so I can get the DQ.


When you go home you does just sit down you know.

When I go home, if the garbage have to take out, I take it out. When I buy something, everyone gets, and most times they get more than me. If it’s to go somewhere, I am asked and I go. If it’s to make popcorn, I am asked and I make the popcorn. If the internet is giving trouble whole day, when I reach home I am asked to call bmobile and I do it.

I am always asked.

I always say “yes”.

When I ask, I get “no” a lot.

I’m so tired.


I am going to try my hardest this year to only speak when necessary. Sometimes I may not speak at all. I waste too many words and I waste too much air on frivolous things.

I am going to try my hardest this year to listen.

I am going to try my hardest this year to observe.

I am going to try my hardest this year to experience.

I am going to try my hardest this year.